Lately I have noticed that a lot of MS bloggers have been writing about living and coping with anxiety (myself included). Since my new year's resolution is focused primarily on dropping my worries, I thought I should post an update for my readers.
I have been feeling much better emotionally since about last Monday. It is possible that my PMS just wore off but it seems I have been doing a few things myself to drop the worrying and to cultivate a positive state of being.
Nothing is perfect but I am embracing the idea that things will work out for me. I guess you could call this faith. My faith is not in some other being but more in myself and in the course of my life. I believe I can and will, be confident again. I believe that in life we generally get what we can bear so in time, I will learn to bear whatever challenges come my way. My confidence has been shaken but I am finding new belief in myself. I can see where I have erred but I can also see what I have accomplished. I realize that I still have the instincts to be a good teacher and to be a good support to other people. I often get emails from other people where they tell me that my blog helps them. This makes me feel good. I prefer to give rather than need but I am learning to accept help.
The second thing that is really helping me out is the idea that every time I confront a challenge or enter a bad or anxious state of mind, I can "press the reset button." To do this, I must be very mindful of my thoughts and emotions. When I notice my mind dwelling in dark places, I need to breath deeply and "reset" my mind. I have realized that a bad start to a day does not have to mean a bad day. An anxious thought needs to be put in its proper place. Whatever makes me anxious can be put onto the back burner until I actually have to deal with it. I also can reduce my anxiety by doing at least one "productive" thing a day.
Today I am thankful for my renewed positivity.