I got a snow day! Actually I got a day and a half. I couldn't have been more thrilled. When I posted my journal yesterday, I was actually at work and in the worst of funks. No more than an hour passed before an announcement came at school that we were being dismissed early due to the snow. I think I cheered at least as loud as the kids. I beat the worst of the snow home. My husband was working from home so we got to hang out a bit. I also got to take a two hour nap in the middle of the week. My yoga class was cancelled too so I stayed home and kept warm. It snowed all night and we were given another day off today. Fortunately, the sun has come out and I should be headed to Arizona in a few hours to visit my mom for spring break. Needless to say, my attitude is swiftly improving.
On another note... Please check out the latest from Merelyme on Health Central. This week she writes about MS and excercise and I'm pleased to have contributed a short piece to this article. I will expand on some of the ideas I contributed to Merely's work in a later article here too.
I am excited for my upcoming trip. I am glad I will have time to relax and destress so I can put some thought into the issues on my mind without feeling overwhelmed. Things have even started to change since yesterday. At first I was dead certain that I had an obligation to be involved in the events unfolding in my school district but as I step back, I am beginning to ask myself, "What do I really want?" Somehow I keep coming back to the idea that maybe I don't want my old life or priorities back. Things have changed and I like my new, less demanding lifestyle and focus. I realize that relaxing, doing and teaching yoga are much more important to me than furthering my career as a public educator. I realize that I am less ambitious than I used to be. I don't really care about making a name for myself. I care about what is good for kids but I don't need to be recognized for the work I do. These days I would rather fly under the radar and keep my schedule as mellow as possible. I have not made any final decisions yet but my gut is telling me that I already have enough on my plate. Sometimes I think I should get a prescription for Provigil so I can feel less fatigue but then I question why. I have enough energy to do what I'm doing so why find more energy just so I can feel like I should be doing more. I do not think doing or achieving are the keys to my happiness now so why push it?
Today I am grateful for my snow day and some new clarity about my real desires.
Caregiver Perspective: Screaming on the Inside
28 minutes ago