I have found my reflections of late helpful. It feels good to own things, write them down and then move on with my life. So far I think I am doing a good job cheerleading for myself. Today I even applied for a couple of jobs outside my district that might help me get out of the classroom and into a role more suited to my current aspirations and health needs. I am not sure what will come of this process but it felt good to do something active to improve my life. One can never know the politics of getting a job but I do feel confident that I am well-qualified to do the jobs I applied for.
I had a physical the other day and that went pretty well. All of my vitals are good but I did "fail" a lung test. My doctor says that my lung x-rays look fine but I am having trouble with exhaling all my air and so that is then effecting my overall respiration. I often feel like I am gulping for air. We are unclear if this is related to the MS, anxiety or something else but I am going for more tests with a pulmonary specialist on Friday so then we will know more. I am just trying to be positive and hope that they don't find anything major. In the meantime, I must admit that all my gasping for air is wearing me out. My chest hurts and I'm rather nauseated but I imagine this too will pass.
This afternoon I am going to see my dad for the first time in a year. I am hoping we will have a nice, productive visit and that perhaps he will shed some light on treatment for my MS (he's a holistic healer). Either way, I'm sure it will be good to catch up. He has not seen me since the day after I was diagnosed and despite my discomfort today, I'm in much better condition.
Today I am thankful that the snow has stopped and the sun has appeared a time or two.